so what do u do when u feel uncomftable

well my gym has turnt into a proper bitch fest and feel uncomftable, starting to look into a different gym I think, im so worried when I leave though I may stop and slow down and gain again :( so  feeling really jubious about it :(
im so desperate to lose this 3.5 stone and feel like my main support network has gone and with that makes me kinda comfort eat :(

well I did it again, i did pump with a side of combat lol

Well, I swear that it takes 2 classes to really know how u feel about a class, as the first is always wow what's going on and ur second is actually doing the class,
I did pump yesterday with another instructor, an instructor I do combat with and I love her energy so I tend to work harder to, def worked harder the 2nd time and also managed to use higher weights, what was I thinking,
One song is all sqwats and by the time I got to the next song my legs were shaking with pain
But I have to say through out the pain I can actually say I could feel me working hard and recon this class could be a very good toner, recon anyone trying to tone up should try this class, yes its going to hurt MEGA but after uve been exercising for a while, that pain becomes like u could say a certificate a medal something given to u to say well done,
Suppose weight loss is like having a baby, u go through lots of pain to get the gd at the end altho no ones offering me gas and air during my combat classes, altho may be quite fun if they did lol
Anyway so after pump and having no feeling in my legs I went onto combat a class I love and put my all in
First track and we get to the start shufferling, and hang on I'm moving but my legs feel like they've stayed behind meand for 3 tracks I feel like I'm going to fall over,
3 tracks it took to get feeling back in my legs, gta be the hardest combat I've done, but I DID it, I was completly wet and walking like an old lady but I felt I was working out,
Gna not push my legs so much for a few days as during combat could feel a muscle back of thigh amd it felt the more I pushed it the more I could feel it being stretched, felt like it was gna break,
Woke up the next day and my legs and shoulders kill a sign to a good workout, of to curves I go x

WELL I DID IT I DID PUMP!!!!!

Well I did Pump on Wednesday,
mmmm im mixed feeling on it, its a strange one its hard work but it wasnt go go go!!! like combat,
3 days on my legs are killing but thats it,

for those who dont know what pump is its a weight programme a long to music, some squats lunges OUCH!!
its a les mills programmes i swear hes a big fat man that sits in his chair and wonders who he can make weight lossers torture them self, but when u get to this point u kinda like it lol!!

the teacher wasnt really euthastic with it either which was a bit crap :. gna try it monday before i do combat with a instructor thats pretty into the classes so makes u work hard :)

Struggerling with not wanting to comfort eating

Been having a pretty :( time lately, it makes not wanting to snack even harder, my daughters home from nursery doing dif days for a while and to be honest coke and sweets are soudning very appealing, im trying my hardest to resist,
having some issues with someone, not full on issues but theres open problems, and i just feel like im screaming right now
so i will lol
arrrgggghhhhhhh these are the hardest times to be good!!

3.5 STONE LEFT AND WHERE I AM NOW,

well I have 3.5 stone left , yes ive lost 6.5 stone,
please dont read this and think its easily done, im pretty much an unhealthy obsessive with exercise,
I do combat swimming pole curves .
some things have changed since last post,
my gym isnt as good as it use to be, once my weight goes as its worked for me i will find somewhere else, theyve changed there hrs which doesnt work for me being a mum, its hard being a woman and finding that balance between family life friends u and then losing weight,
but im there and i will lose the weight, Im still LOVING combat and cant go a week without doing it even try and fit in 2 now,

Im trying pump tonight :/  feeling really nervous as going alone, although one of the combat girls said shel do with me if she can leave work early enough so fingers cross i like it,
im in a frustration place now, ive lost 6.5 stone and im still not at target, i sometimes think i look worst then I did,

went swimming yesterday did 31 lengths, :) aching a lil today lol, im in competition with a friends partner who can do the most, i swear one day were going to kill our selfs doing it,

my taste buds have changed so much , food i never thought i would taste i do and like, and things i liked i dont anymore,

people tell me they wish they could be as motivated as me and i always say that people over weight of course they dont like it, but i think something clicks in ur head when ur truely ready and u put ur all in it, Im so strict i barely treat i dont snack and if i do slip i will work even harder in my workouts,

im burning 600+ cals now at curves :)
IM starting a new menu for a month, my friend does slimming world and has given me a menu and wants me to try it recons il lose a stone + this month mmm i said id give it a go and I will,

my next weigh in is next Tuesday :/ dreading it this month ive worked hard but theres been some occasions,

Ive met some amazing inspriation people in my journey so far, and i hope you will continue to read,
will give u my update of pump later :)

Support

Ive had a mixture of people with a mixture of reactions,
some people expect me to fail, some people are waiting for me to and some people are nothing but supportive,

DEBBIE:
debbie is one of my bestest friends, and shes one of my main supports,
if i feel like i want to give up or i want to snack all I have to do is message her and shel be there telling me no.

Slimming Groups,

there fab for getting new recipes or posting ideas, and if ur having a hard time there all in same situation to listen and offer advice,.


so This is my story in short version so far, Keep reading for my story and my progress..

Weigh in after xmas and its 2011 this is the year for my weight to come off and my confidence on

had an Ok xmas was ill the whole day really ill, but least it stopped me snacking i suppose.
im still at zumba and im still doing well,
Zumba isnt really making me lose weight to be honest but im still enjoying it and its certainly helped with my weight loss, ive lose a lot of weight but still cant buy smaller clothes its a confidence issue,
and the reason i started losing weight cause of people calling me fat has bought more worry if there not calling me fat what will they say that will hurt me cause it can only be my son :(

A friend asked if i wanted to try a class called body combat, so i went along OMG i hated it, it killed me and made me ache for days, so can anone actually tell me that if this is the way i felt ive been going back for 6 months lol
i figured even though i hated it, i should still give it one more try everything takes 2 times right!!
2nd time wasnt to bad,
so I kept going changing the days i went so wouldnt get bored . the instructors are fantastic, and it really keeps the class going,
I even go on my own which i never would have done before,

Ive also learnt to pole dance


see my next post for my inspirations and support

Back at curves and introuducing zumba

well im back at curves have my first weigh in since ive been back lose 14 lbs wow how the hell did i do that, but gives me the motivation i need,
ive persuaded my friends to join ZUMBA to, cant wait for the weight to come off.

me and 2 friends joined zumba, it was so much fun, didnt seem like exercising, just having a gd laugh with 2 girlfriends,

i did zumba for 12 weeks and along with eating well and curves ive lose around 3 stone now but i have xmas to over come yet, all my classes arent on and curves is shut how am i going to keep it together

SEPTEMBER IS HERE THIS IS HARD

well Ive been at curves now for 2 months i havent lose a great deal about a stone now,on top of the 2 stone i lost before joining curves but been working hard,
having a tough time at home, me and my husband may not survive this hard time between us and ive just found out im pregnant,
im having a real tough time a lot of sickness and i swear something isnt right,
i find out my blood pressure it way to high and im ill, i have a miscarriage,
cant face anyone right now so i havent gone back to curves for a while, and im not ashamed to admit no exercise but i do eat some wrong stuff.
8 weeks later i decide i have to get back on it

My Journey starts

well Ive started at curves not long after my consultation, everyone was lovely they helped me so much and so supportive, I have a tag that i put into all machines that pushes me harder and shows me how many calories im burning, i start burning around 500 cals in 30 mins wow... who would have thought id actually find a gym that i would love going to, it wasnt a chore it was something i enjoyed,
i did start becoming quite obsessive with calorie counting , made myself a lil ill to be honest, id try and eat 1000 cals but then burn 500 I had no energy but i had to lose weight,
im still not on the cola and cooking everything from fresh

the husband is loving it!!

The start of my weight loss, the realisation

Everyone over weight, cant say they enjoy being over weight, no matter what we say, i think we just bury our heads and tell ourself we cant do it,
Ive had my fair share of drama and when ive got into disagreements they always say now im fat this and fat that, i took no notice and thought ok clearly you have no intelligence that you pick on the obvois,
until one day, my daughters god father and i got into a silly disagreement about my husband, he told me that i was fat etc and that my BMI must be 69.9 , he told me that my daughter will end up 6 foot under with my son cause im so fat and thats why my babys end up there in the first place,
i can deal with you calliing me fat but you dont bring my children into it,
So i decided it was time to lose weight to show HIM , yes thats right i wasnt losing weight for me, i was losing weight to shut someone up,

So i decided i was going to give up cola i drunk a lot but did not drink as much as i thought, i couldnt understand why i had gained so much weight, i didnt think i ate unhealthy i just knew i drunk a lot of coke,

so I gave up the coca cola, and when into serious withdrawl symptons shakiness headaches feeling of weak and constant feeling ill , it was horrible, no one believes i would do it, they all believed id give up, its Jo saying that she wants to lose weight AGAIN,

the first two months I lose 2 stone whooo changed nothing but drinking coke, wow who would have thought , not me,, the next month I lost nothing so decided i needed to do more,
my daughters key worker told me about a gym called curves it was for woman and it was a circuit so ur using all the right equipment and they were there constantly to help you, you also had a weigh in and inches done each month,

i turnt up to my first appointment and got myself weighed OMG when did i become this big, i know i was always heavy for my size but this was ridiclous, i had to lose 10 stone, thats a whole person for me to be what i hope to be happy with my size, i knew a lot of hard work was to go into it,
i told Denise who signed me up if this doesnt work im going to go for surgery, she told me if I work hard it will work, but only I can change this,
we went through a questionaire and i was asked why are you doing this?
is it to keep up with your daughter.. Nope... i run around playzone and krazy kaves with the other mums even the skinny ones,
is it cause your doing something special NOPE... so why are you losing weight Jolene , I was asked,
cause i want people to stop calling me fat, i want them to actually use there intelligence in nastiness,

we worked out my food and drink where i was going wrong, and Denise told me i was drinking 5litres of cola aday wow, i was spending over £100 a month on a drink, BUT  was a drink I need, ive actually been in hos with my withdrawl as im addicted to one of the chemicals and not the caffine

My journey starts